After letting Buster outside to do her business, I feed her and giver her her meds and try to go back to sleep for a few more hours, it was 6:30, although Blake has completely spread out all over the bed and I have to wake him up and move him over, which I do. We fall asleep cuddling for a few more hours. Once we wake up, I send him away to pack while I give Mattie her meds and make breakfast. Our last breakfast together for 3 months. It was sad. But we got through it, and got ready to go. The plan was to get to Grand Central Terminal early so we can spend some time with each other before he got into a taxi and off to JFK. In case your confused, driving in Manhattan is Crazy, and driving to JFK airport is also crazy. If he were to take subways to the airport he would have to transfer to about 3 or 4 different airports, crazy. So we took the train into Grand Central and sat at a table for an hour in a half. We did good. We were not an emotional mess like I thought we would be. Its okay. Then after some coffee, the "make a box" game on a napkin (Shannon you know what I am talking about :) ), a slice of pizza we began to make our way to the outside world were that dreaded taxi awaits. Once there, we hugged briefly and before I burst into tears I almost shoved him into the taxi and off back into Grand Central, and on my way home. Once on the train I tried to read, and I was even texting Blake but sitting on that train felt so different, lonely. Another transition that I must overcome. Yesterday was hard, my eyes hurt, and my heart ached, but its going to be okay, I will just get through this week and then school starts and I will be too busy to miss Blake. Then November will be here and after a visit with my grandma Blake will be here, then I will fly home for the holidays. All will work out in the end.
Here's the plan now. I will post another blog with all the pictures from our trip, then I will post a blog about once a week keeping tabs on all that I am doing... I miss and love you all and will see you all soon. :)
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2 comments:
I hope the journey brought you two even closer. I think you will find that the distance will be difficult, but in the end you will love each other even more! I start school on monday and have been so damn busy, but I hope to hear from you soon.
You'll be just fine - both of you! This is a very exciting time for you snd the next 3 months will go by so fast, before you know it-it's November! I love you, your family loves you, Roxy loves you, Lilly loves you, Tai loves you, Judas loves you...but I'm not sure about Alex.
Love, Mom
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